Frustration.

frustration [frʌˈstreɪʃən]
n
1. the condition of being frustrated
2. something that frustrates
3. (Psychology) Psychol
a. the prevention or hindering of a potentially satisfying activity
b. the emotional reaction to such prevention that may involve aggression

This word describes my state right now.
I just wanna kick my own ass. I wanna clone myself and kick my ass. Seriously!
There are so many things that frustrate me right now! For example, I don't know why I don't do things I plan on doing! I know I am o full-time procrastinator, and I am really really annoyed by it.
This is how I imagine my future: me going to nursing school at at my aunts', in the other side of the country, living with her, my brother and my cousin. Me going to school and being really good at it. I imagine me starting to learn the human anatomy for my university exam and psychology for my final high school exam. Also, I want to take a part-time job this summer so I can buy myself a laptop and other stuff. But I have this thing that every time I imagine something that I really want to happen, it will not happen, and I can vividly imagine going there and doing all that stuff and it's quite annoying. So I wanna motivate myself to do all the shit I wanna do! Like finish high school with flying colours and take all my exams. But I'm not feeling my best, so I'll do all of the things I imagine happening just so I can prove to myself that I can do anything I want to do.

So, because I wanna feel a bit better about myself, I'm gonna list 5 things I'm really proud of.

1. I have  double jointed thumb! It's my left thumb.
2. I have uneven legs. May or may not be that interesting, and it does affect my life in a bad way, I think it's awesome.
3. I have a pretty good memory. But if I have a calcium deficiency, my memory goes bonkers.
4. I read a lot.
5. I can sing.

Well, I hope I can stop procrastinating from no on. Yup.
I'm just gonna leave you with this pretty kewl song.



Goodbye,
M.